This time last year

Its amazing how images can summons up so many feelings.

This image reminds me of the last couple of months of my pregnancy.

When i see this image I remember vividly how i felt.
I was hot and I was huge..... And I was ZOMG uncomfortable.
The weather had already turned quickly into summer like heat and with my growing body I felt like I was close to having heat stroke the entire day.

I was swollen.

I had to give up work early because I couldn't handle being on my feet all day. I hated that, I resented it because I felt like some sort of failure, I really felt terrible for not working through Christmas like I said i would. It didn't matter that my boss knew I would end up having to finish early, it didn't matter that everyone knew, before I did, that I would finish earlier than I was supposed to.

This image reminds me of all the hopes and dreams i had for my unborn child. I would spend hours thinking about what he would be like. What it would feel like to touch him and smell him.


I wondered what he would look like, what colour his hair would be, what colour would his eyes turn out to be. Would he look like me? Would he be ok?

I barely even thought about labour to be honest -only that i wanted it to hurry up and be over so I didn't have to feel so crap all day and I would have my baby in arms.

It reminds me of how jealous i was that it was cold on the other side of the world!

This image reminds me of all that. it all hits me in the space of a second.

I love it.

I stumbled across the lovely little lady who took this picture in these last horrid hot days.
She was due to give birth to her little girl around the same time as me and i was drawn to her by her identical to mine stretchmarked belly with the same little freckle at the top!

Even though thats where our similarities end, she has touched my life dramatically with her positivity and optimism (something i severely lack!), the way she thinks about parenting and her ability to find beauty in things I just don't see. A strong breastfeeding avocate, she even supported our journey of formula feeding from the sidelines when others didn't.

Anyway, enough blabberjabbing, this print along with a few other favourites of mine, are up for sale on Etsy and I think you should check them out.

A love list

♥ Little fingers & little toes
♥ A peaceful house to ourselves
♥ Warmer weather, sunshine and love
♥ Strawberries
♥ Baby claps

Love List

♥ ZJ's 'Chrunchy Scrunchy' face (above :))
♥ Quiet mornings to sleep in
♥ Big smiles and baby claps when I come home from work
♥ Early nights reading in bed
♥ The feeling I get when all the chores are done

Backlit

Backlit, originally uploaded by ♥ Lililly.

This photo was taken just for entering in the NZFM Monthly project - Window light.

I usually don't take selfies with a project or absolute specific idea in mind, as I find they just never work out how I expect or how I want them to. In a way in kinda of cramps my style.

So really I'm trying to push that side of things more, especially with my Dante's Inferno set I'm creating.

Anyway, back to this picture....
I am in two minds about this one, I like the lighting on my back ALOT. Also nice seeing my tattoo again, its been a while :P

My hair and arm on the left looks all weird though. Its like my hair has been through a crimping iron or something.

...and has my butt always been that big?

Oy vey.

Something I should point out

After that last post.

I'm not just pro formula feeding... although it sounds like I am only that and nothing else.

Just like I'm not pro breastfeeding.

I'm pro doing whatever feels right.

If that means you pulling out your boob and feeding your baby that way, have a seat and let me grab you a glass of water and a nursing pillow. Of your are putting a bottle in your baby's mouth instead? Well same goes.

Baby proofing

Our kitchen area and computer areas are now completely cut off from the lounge (its kind of open plan) thanks to some ranch slider sized baby blocking devices. We also got a gate for the hall/stairs to the garage and also another ranch slider sized blocker that we can use on the double entrance doors (or for the deck stairs if we want to let him crawl out there).

It would be nice if they were more gate like so we didn't have to step over them... but we can take them down at night easily so its no biggy, they are thin enough to slide behind the couches. The system works well :D





Its nice to have our junk out and know its not going to a. harm him in any way or b. get nom nomed on.

Inferno - lust.

Inferno - lust., originally uploaded by ♥ Lililly.

A reworked selfie for a new project I'm doing - a collection of prints based on 'Dante's Inferno. This one is inspired by Dante’s Inferno second ring of Hell – Lust.

It is said that those banished to the second ring of hell will be blown around by a violent storm, which symbolises how lust blows one around needlessly and aimlessly.

Hang in there babe!

Hang in there babe!, originally uploaded by ♥ Lililly.

In the style of the lovely Miss Fawn, a Love List:

♥ Snuggles and cuddles
♥ Baby chortles and giggles
♥ Playing peekaboo through the cot rails
♥ Reading together
♥ Sunny and crisp spring afternoons