a to do list

Long time no posting eh?

I'm tired ya'll. This pregnancy is starting to kick my butt. Luckily, I only have another 3 weeks of work to go, and even more thankfully, two of those weeks are short thanks to doctors appointments requiring annual leave and long weekend days in lieu.

I'm hanging out for my leave to start now, not only because i'm dog tired but also because i have a list of mundane things i want to achieve before number two comes into our lives. I'm fully in nesting mode but im also too damn exhausted to do anything about it. Its an odd sensation. All my spare time right now is spend trying to recoup for the next week ahead, stressing about money and spending time with my son.

Anyway, the list...

1. Probably a decent thing to have on the to do list..and quite big - Set up the baby cot and our room. (This actually requires a few sub things such as 'steal baby cot from brother's place', 'find baby bedding in depths of ZJ's wardrobe' and 'nag at Simon to move stuff around'.)
2. Again, another valid thing... Sort out the piles of newborn clothing (requires extra things like - 'wash all that damn clothing' and 'find somewhere to put said clothing')
3. Buy bottles and equipment for new baby. Yes I'm bottlefeeding from day 1 again.
   
   but then the weird mundane things start like...
4. Pluck eyebrows. I'm starting to look like a yetti, but failing to actually care right now.
5. Put all the cooking books in one place. Why? I don't know but my brain says this is IMPORTANT. It will take two seconds but i can't do it now? *shrugs*
6. Put photos in photo frames and display around house. Again, this seems like a weird stupid thing but the brain is like 'this needs to be done YO!'. Maybe to make it more 'homey'? or am i just making up weird justifications?
7. Clean out the Tupperware and random containers cupboard. Also brain needs this completed before number two arrives. I'm going to say this is because i want to see what bottle equipment we actually need for the new baby but really I'm just going to go ahead and by new bottles anyway as i said above so it really makes no sense.
8. Tidy the pantry. Seriously its irritating the hell out of me.
9. Clean the fridge. Again, irritating the hell out of me. Beyond belief.
10. Organise a memory box for ZJ and new baby. instead of it all sitting in random places.
11. Did I mention the eyebrows?

God, I can't wait until I can live in trackie pants all day.

Visiting namesakes

My nephew Josh died 5 years ago, to the day yesterday.
I can't even begin to describe the grief I still feel over this loss.

I'm sad my son never got to meet the man he was named after and the only memory he will have of him is a carved dragon headstone.

I want write about the sadness I feel. The sadness I feel about my family and for my family. But I really can't. Not only because this really isnt the place for it, that what I think and say really means nothing but also because if I do I will break to bits again. And I can't afford to.

so instead I'm just going to think about watching my beautiful son toddle around in his shiny new gumboots, getting all wet in the dew soaked grass and grinning like a mischievous ratbag as he picked at flowers left at his namesake's grave.

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A love list

♥ Corkscrew curls
♥ Snuggling on the couch in the mornings with my two boys drinking coffee (we give ZJ and empty cup so he stops trying to ninja ours)
♥ Autumn leaves on the desk
♥ Crisp and cool mornings
♥ Sunsets on the drive home

Little explorers are hard on a mama's heart.

My little man is fast turning into a real little man. Its absolutely terrifying and heart warming all at once.







Happy mother's day to all the mama's out there :)

Temper tantrums

The kiddo had a major meltdown the other morning.

He didn't want to get up, he didn't want to get out of his PJs. He certainly didn't want to get dressed into his clothes. Didn't want breakfast but wanted ours. Wanted our cups of coffee but not his own bottle. Then he wanted it. Then he didn't. Then he wanted to bite me and I wouldn't let him - the greatest injustice of all people. THE. GREATEST.

Then he threw the biggest patty I have seen to date.....and I thought it was cute so I took photos of it.

He wasn't impressed.

Cultivation

Oh baby!!

I was lucky enough to have a photo shoot with this little cutie a week or two back and wanted to share a couple of the images.


I especially love the pouty face, so so cute!



Loving doing these baby photos! If you know of anyone who wants to get a few snaps done of their little ones - please please point them towards my current specials :)

Its been a crazy few days in our house. Bad, comforting, horrid, warm, angry and more than a little exhausting.