Saturday, January 15, 2011

An ode to my camera

During the last few shots of a christening I was photographing yesterday my camera started acting out my worst nightmare. It started to complain and throw up these error 99 messages. And then it refused to shoot all together.

!#!#!$%^$@!

After a few bits and pieces of advice from mates, ex husbands and photographers (and about 3 beers) I found a way to at least fix it momentarily (Uhm, yay!).

But that was close, folks. Seriously... too close for me.

Lets face it, my camera has been everywhere with me in the past 3 years.

It was there for about 400 self portraits...
Boudoir

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Heart on my sleeve

Its been balanced on everything from a salt encrusted post at the beach to a pile of dirt at the park. Its taken pictures of shells, bus stations, trees, pegs and skies (and... everything in between).

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Its seen the worst sides of me. Its seen depression and anxiety. The grief of loosing a loved one. The breakdown of my marriage.
Honestly

I witnessed two of my best friends getting married through its lens.
Bridget gets hitched - 1 of many Kiss

Its has taken almost a thousand pictures of babies - both my own and others.
And almost as many pregnant bellies!
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ÉclairMeet Cooper 3Zach 09IMG_7281Gorgeous Boy.

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Its also seen the sights in New Orleans, Seattle, Los Angeles and countless other cities
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It helped me publish a book of my self portraits (and be published in 3 other books). Its seen 2 failed 365 attempts. I've met countless friends through photography and its been there to mark all of my children's milestones.

Honestly?

What would I do without it?

Friday, January 14, 2011

♥ list

Love this chiffon gown by TingBridal.

:)
I can't get over Heather Evans Smith's photography. Love love love!.

the small things make me happy.
My new bag. This was my christmas present from Simon.
Its not just the bag that I absolutely adore, but the day when we got it. ♥

This is cute, Poem stiching cushion by Mybeardedpigeon.

Lovely purse by Redrubyrose on Etsy.

Winter breath

Memories of childhood summers at my grandparents bach.
Originally uploaded by the talented Philternz on Flickr.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Why am i here?

So, a question.

Why the hell am I here??

When I first started blogging it was back in something like 2005 or 6 and it was more of a diary, a way of getting crap out of my head. I had a lot of crap. I cringe looking back.

When I moved to blogger I was really getting into photography and it was a great way of sharing and promoting that. But now I don't really have time to even pick up the camera, let alone have anything to promote. I've decided to give up the paid photography thing. I don't feel I have the talent, nor the freedom to really go for it big time. And realistically it needs to be big time for us to survive - hence the lack of freedom. I'm the breadwinner.

When I became a parent I talked about parenting a lot. especially formula. But I have all but given up on that campaign. I've been humiliated, bullied and made to feel not up to par. And honestly? I don't think that is going to change. not in the time that my babies are on it anyway. I'm a sub standard mama, I've just gotten over it.

Then there is the crafty stuff. I love making stuff, seeing pretty things, posting pretty things. The blog turned into a bit of a scrapbook with me going magpie and pinching stuff from all over the place. But I really don't have time to surf the internet anymore. I wake up at 5-5:30 to Evie, jump in the shower before she hits full screech mode, get her dressed and creamed up which can take a while since we have to really cream her up - her eczema is nutty (probably also to blame on my sub standard parenting and use of formula). I start feeding her while Simon showers. Sometime i try to surf the next at this time with her propped on a pillow. But I kinda hate it. Being the working parent its often the only time i feed her during the day and my heart needs to watch her. I leave for work around 7:30 after getting ZJ up and fed. No time there. Home after 5 sometime, putting Evie down, dinner and ZJ's bedtime ensues. I can't often get away with being on here while Evie is down because shes an even lighter sleeper than i am.

I want to craft. I do. But unlike many of the people whose blogs I follow, I'm not a stay at home parent with naps to work through or running my own creative business, so I just don't have the time. Then I find when I do have the time I end up running around like a chook with its head chopped off because there is SO MUCH TO ACHIEVE in that short space of child sleeping bliss (especially with two, if they manage to nap simultaneously I'm just turning religious and thankful.

So why the hell am I here? What do i have to offer the lovely people that clicked 'follow'? Nada.
Is it time to turn in the blogging hat?

Anyway, in the meantime, im going to go ahead and leave you with Week 2s nail polish colour...because its awesome.

Week 2

The happy mistake

The happy mistake

I love the light in our bedroom in the mornings.

Monday, January 10, 2011

The nailpolish thing.

This was week one, I will show you what I'm wearing this week tomorrow.

Week 1

Kermit green like :D But actually called BYS 'Potluck'.

I'm not a pro in nail polish but this stuff went on easy as and it STAYED ON. Even with all the banging of nails and shit my hands go through in a day. 4/5 stars for sure.

I'm loving this stupid little project. Its kind of rebellious wearing this stuff at work... like my pink hair was, but on a smaller more subtle level ;)

At the park

Almost two

Almost two

Zander was in one of his screamy monster moods, so I took him for one on one time at the park. We played 'lets try and do self potraits while balancing the camera on some dirt' and then had a go on the seesaw and slide. He crawled through a tunnel and attempted to climb up the jungle gym.

Sometimes I look at him and my heart almost explodes. I made him. How could I make something so beautiful, something so worth every bit of stress and happiness i can muster up?

What is that quote about when you have children you heart is permanently on the outside? Thats me these days.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Sunrise, sunrise

Sunrise, sunrise

Looks like mornin' in your eyes

♥ list

like in a cool pool
'Like in a cool pool'. Originally uploaded by Mela.de.gypsie

today...

Originally uploaded by ♥gartersnlace♥

Remembering book necklace by Anticovalore.

#186/365 - "I'd kill for a Nobel Peace Prize"
Originally uploaded by Jamie Carter.

 Thin custom worded posy rings. So cute. By Kathryn Riechert on etsy.

Brown n blue journal by jenni4k on Etsy.

Monday, January 3, 2011












01: Set aside at least one hour a day to doing stuff that is just for me.
02: Wear nail polish. Let the inner funk come out. One colour for every week?
03: Start a routine at night in which I remove markup from eyes so it wont end up on pillows (!!!).
04: Stop caring if they look, and what they think.
05: Journal. Write, Draw, doodle, colour, collect + stick for every day this year.
06: Take more pictures.
07: Make a decision. Plan for the future.
08: Pay off some debt.
09: Be more crafty. Sew, create, play.
10: Get off ass and convince [ex]hubby to get off his ass and get divorced.
11: Plan a wedding :D

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